Some day you came
And I knew you were the one
You were the rain, you were the sun
But I needed both, cause I needed you
You were the one
I was dreaming of all my life
When it is dark you are my light

- Enigma

this emotion i feel, i cannot define it. its unlike anything i have felt before. its like.... everything is just right when i am with her...
she brings out the best in me...
men seek peace in god and heavens... is not real peace in the embrace of the woman u love ? isnt her every word a melody ? a song that needs not singing... just listening...
her one glance would mean a thousand words... the feel of her breath on my face is like a warm spring breeze... the silken touch of her hair... her smile making me skip a heart beat.... her lips....i'd give my whole life just to kiss them once....
she is the beauty in my life...
my strength when i am weak..
my pride when i feel low...
my link to life when i m dying...
the soul in my body...
my reason for striving to be the best....
the reality of my illusions...
the sole light in all the darkness around me...
my last breath will escape with her name...


she is the woman i had forever loved without knowing who it was... without the sight of her... even in her absence... i knew she was there... she had to be...
have i found her ? how i hope i have.... and how i hope she realizes that she is my flower...

hmmm.....

"... to find the guilty, u need only look into a mirror."

we often blame others for the vile things happened and happening to us. i know it. i have done it. i have blamed everything that has happened to me in the last twenty years on my family, on the people around me, on god. everyone. it is so easier to blame someone else. so easier to run.
blame gives birth to anger. anger gives birth to hatred. i donot consider anger and hatred a sin..... there are people who ARE indecent. they donot have a shred of goodness inside. they should be shown no mercy.
some say forgiveness is a symbol of strength. yet i believe that forgiveness only allows a sin to go unpunished, and thus, to grow. a man is responsible for his actions. even if he feels in hindsight that he is wrong, he has committed that mistake. a mistake can never go unpunished. sparing the rod is the only mistake the society does.
A man should be strong enough to know that he is wrong. that his deeds cannot be undone by the useless act of forgivness.

To achieve virtue in the absolute sense, a man must be willing to the foulest crimes upon his soul - for the sake of his brothers. Flesh is mortal...... soul is not. True virtue is in mortifying your soul. So you think you love the broad mass of mankind? You know nothing about love. You give two bucks to a strike fund and you think you have done you duty ?? Fools.... NO gift is worth a damn, unless its the most precious thing you've got.

Are you ready to give your soul ?
to a lie ? yes, if others believe it.
to deceit ? yes, if others need it.
to treachery, knavery, crime ? Yes !! to whatever it is that seems lowest and vilest in your eyes. Only when you can feel contempt for your priceless little ego, only then you can achieve the true broad peace of selflessness, the merging of your spirit with the vast collective spirit of mankind.

There is no room for the love of others within the tight, crowded miser's hole or a private ego. Be empty in order to be filled. The sacrifice that includes the destruction of one's soul....... is only for heroes to grasp and achieve........

-- Provoked by the Fountainhead.

unse nazar kya milii roshan fizaaen ho gaiin,
aaj jaana pyaar kii jaaduugarii kya chiiz hai....

khultii zulfon ne sikhaaii mausamon ko shaayarii,
jhuktii aankhon ne bataaya maikashii kya chiiz hai.....

ham labon se kah na paae unse haal-e-dil kabhii,
aur voh samjhe nahiin yeh khaamoshii kya chiiz hai.....

--- Jagjit Singh

Isolation is the said to be the most effective form of human torture. Mere hours of sensory solitary can reduce the strongest of men to tears. Days of it will drive them to madness.

I have been at it for years.......