Knowing

how many years do we live ?

how many times do we die ?

i am born every morning.... look forward to the peaceful sleep every night.
that is how i live life and that is how i believe it should be lived. forget ur past, forget ur mistakes, forget ur weakness, forget ur pain. will it all away.

remember only what u love... what is worth waking up the next morning
most people dont find it...
most people cannot retain it... it can be a person, a profession, a book, a statue....
believe that mute perseverance will always triumph.
believe in yourself because u know ur truth
there are no gods, no co-incidences, no miracles....... only their illusions

world is not grey. its black and white. use ur mind... the truth lies in front of u.... its only as obscure as u make it

observe-calculate-judge
break free of the chains that bind u....

LIVE NOW AND NOW IS FOREVER :)

is the world bizzare ? or am i ?

galactic.avenger: lol

me: :P

galactic.avenger: Bizarro superman to be precise

8:33 PM me: bizzaro IS superman

thr is only one bizarro

galactic.avenger: ok

me: so no need to use superman with him

galactic.avenger: oki

me: thr is a clone for batman also

hez called batzarro

8:34 PM galactic.avenger: btw have u ever listened to the superman song from the scrubs tv show

me: he n bizarro r a team...

o.0

nope

u got it ?

galactic.avenger: yea

wait

wait this not some superman song its just called so

me: o.0

wt shud i do ?

8:35 PM galactic.avenger: take it its pretty good

me: kk

aur bata wassap ?

galactic.avenger: well nothing much

me: k

8:36 PM baal bacche kaise hain ?

bhabhi ji kaisii hain ?

raashan paani aa raha haina ?

galactic.avenger: haha

me: :P

galactic.avenger: kyun kya hua. someone asked u all that?

aur aaj ka exam how did it go

8:37 PM me: lol

exam kuch khaas nai gaya

8:39 PM galactic.avenger: ok

toh kya hua who gives a damn

8:40 PM does a dam give a damn?

will u give a damn about a dam?

the whole damnation will not account for the cost of building a damn

*dam

:P

me: lol

bhaya

kya ho gaya aisa ?

8:41 PM galactic.avenger: kuch nahi

i think damn and bogus are pretty cool words

bogus man

8:42 PM me: lol

aisa kyu bhai ?

galactic.avenger: i mean bogus sounds so indie

no punkish

Bow-Gus

8:43 PM me: ...

kaise kar leta hai tu ye ?

:D

galactic.avenger: kya

8:44 PM me: yahi

aisii batein

8:45 PM wo bhi bina piye hue

:D

8:46 PM ada padh liya ?

galactic.avenger: wouldnt it be great to have all the insight of the high without being so?

8:47 PM me: then it wud be of no value

:P

galactic.avenger: lol

me: i mean

it will seemingly hav no value...

8:48 PM galactic.avenger: but then people will respect your seemingly stange powers of surrealistic incoherence without you having a bad breadth or a staggering walk

me: no...

8:49 PM thn everyone will have powers such as u...

galactic.avenger: are you kidding me.

me: yaar

galactic.avenger: (i have that power :P)

me: if one guy can get somthing without having to fight for it... without having to raise his level for it

8:50 PM then so can a million othrs...

galactic.avenger: yea but no one realizes it easy to talk to philosophic bullshit

me: the value of power or sight or knowledge lies in the fact that how obscurely it is placed

8:51 PM galactic.avenger: yes but it is easy to grasp the knowledge but its not easy to place it in such a way to make it seem as it is magic

me: yup

thats the imp part...

no one respects a secret once its known

:D

galactic.avenger: yes so if a person who can talk surreal in normal circumstances will make people wonder how does he do it

8:52 PM why does he do it and more importantly "i am in awe of him for i cannot do it"

or "hes bullshit i dont care for i have more friends"

lol

8:54 PM me: lol

8:55 PM umm

do u realize we both r saying the same thing ?

8:56 PM galactic.avenger: yes but you are stressing on the fact that everything is achievable by everyone whereas i am trying to stress on the fact that most people will never try

me: but everything IS achievable by almost everyone

the only problem is what u said....

8:57 PM most ppl dont try

galactic.avenger: yes i know that but they dont know that ;) and it is this fact that people such as us should bank on

me: lol

galactic.avenger: the fact that we did the work of knowing this makes it necessary for us

8:58 PM me: ye bhi hai

but we r not seperate from humanity...

shudnt we try to help them ?

galactic.avenger: of course

8:59 PM i am not averse to that idea

but people are ignorant puppies who wouldnt even want to learn something unless it benefits them immediately

u give them a bone and they will take it readily

9:00 PM me: yea

the donot see the big picture...

galactic.avenger: but u give them a shovel to dig all the bones they can they would cringe and would rather starve or cry for mummy

9:01 PM me: aptly put

9:02 PM hmmm

galactic.avenger: there is no big picture, isnt it the only picture? aren't the things we crave for nothing more than the manifestation of humans who chose to put things into order? aren't was all follwing this train of sequence to make ourselves more able in a world of chaos. the chaos intrigues us, we try to make sense of it

me: actually

smaller pictures r just the seperate pieces of the bigger picture

9:03 PM galactic.avenger: yes kinda like views of a table :P

me: o.0

of a table ?

galactic.avenger: u know in sql

me: oooh

yea

right

9:04 PM galactic.avenger: there are virtual views which arent tables but merely representations

me: selective points from the whole data base is shown

here ppl see only those things that afffect them directly

galactic.avenger: yes

exactly

9:05 PM me: this is the main reason why r not in tune with nature

u know

just a few hours before i was thinking abt how man is so far removed from anything natural

9:06 PM i think its just coz we r short sighted

galactic.avenger: we are not short sighted

we are merely paralysed

me: it is voluntary paralysis

9:07 PM galactic.avenger: its mandatory paralysis

me: which is given rise coz of our short sightedness

no dude no

look at the oil problem

galactic.avenger: fuck the oil problem

me: in the world

galactic.avenger: look at ourselves

me: we know what the solutions r

but we dont act on them

coz we fear change

yea

look at ourselves

best examples

9:08 PM we both know our short comings

we r not that blind

:P

galactic.avenger: yet we dont work on it

me: i'll talk abt myself

i know exactly what i must do

but i dont do it

:P

galactic.avenger: yes

:)

true

so sture

9:09 PM me: its the same with every1 upto some level

i mean

look

no1 thinks hez perfect

every1 thinks he can improve

galactic.avenger: but then we are blinded by a certain perception of this world which has such a high degree of physical presence

me: then why dznt he ?

coz it will change him

galactic.avenger: no

9:10 PM i want to change

me: no

galactic.avenger: but i cannot in some things

me: yes u can

wahii to mental block hai yaar

THAT is our bane

thinking we cannot do anything

evolution ?

me: acha

i want to do the same

i believe that there is one universal law

ashima: n that is..

me: that will explain everything in the physical world

ashima: aahh...

9:31 PM me: i so wanna know wt it is

it must be beautiful

of terrible simplicity

dont u think ?

so simple we havnt thopught of it yet

:D

9:32 PM ashima: to govern the universe..i dunno if it wud be simple

me: it has to be simple

in fact

ashima: v may allow ourselve 2 think that watever it is it's too simple

bt who knos

me: it will be a law that can be written in just one line

without any long equations

9:33 PM yaar

world is simple

when u look at it..

dont u think so ?

ashima: explain it further

me: look at animals

9:34 PM bhai unki life kitni simple hai

ashima: i dunno if its simple, i dont have the knowledge 2 make sch a statement..

me: eat, sleep, make out

bhai

we humans have complicated life

9:35 PM destroyed our natural surrounding

ashima: thr are complexities in the lives of animals too

me: nai yaar

kuch complex nai hota

ashima: escaoe from nimals who devour u,

find food fr urself

me: unka primary rule hai survival of their race

ashima: bring up family, look after babies till thy can support thmselves

9:36 PM me: survival with the best off springs

wahi to

everything is based on survival

but look at humans

we dont just survive

we improvise

we invent

discover

create

ashima: think

think too mch..

me: to make our simple life complicated

ashima: hehehehhe

me: yes

ashima: yes

me: thinking too much is not good at all

9:37 PM ashima: not at all

me: :P

ashima: from wat i've seen

ppl compliacte their lives only by thinking too mch

me: actually

their attempt at simplifying life complicates it more

9:38 PM its like trying to untangle a mass of strings

ashima: i'd say there are too many aspects f humans

emotional, physical, moral..wat not

that is wat complicates

9:39 PM me: yeaa

i think we shud publish a book

:D

ashima: hahahahahaahhaahahaha

who'd read it??

9:40 PM only ppl like us wud b interested in it, n thy'd b writing buks themselves

;)

me: lol

sahi baat

its not going to happen :|

Love

What does being in love mean ? i dont know. but i know that if you love something, u r in a constant fear. afraid that it may be taken away from you. i was in love once. i knew i was, because i was constantly afraid. now it doesnt seem worth it. i hate people who say " if u really love something, u dont have to be afraid of it being taken away from u".... wt kinda crappy reasoning is that ??? i will shield the thing i love from all eyes. only the worthy would look at it.... that is my love and i stand by it

happy b'day

i am a man driven by my ego... it is the only thing that can actually control me

every single moment with her was like
u know
the way i wanted to feel all my life

knowing that i cud make her laugh
even for 1 second made me feel proud abt myself in a way i never had

before this moment, i believed i was the strongest person i had ever known
before this moment, i believed nothing could break me

i believed that with her our life wud always be a sunny day

i belived that i cudnt love anyone so much

not anymore

i still see you... but i am getting stronger each passing day. there will come a time when i dont need your memory anymore...

this is my borrowed time

The Moving Finger writes, and having writ,
Moves on: nor all your Piety nor Wit
Shall lure it back to cancel half a line,
Nor all your tears wash out a Word of it.

Here with a little bread beneath the Bough,
A Flask of Wine, A Book of Verse--and Thou
Beside me singing in the Wilderness--
Oh, Wilderness were Paradise enow!

Waste not your Hour, nor in the vain pursuit
Of This and That endeavor and dispute;
Better be jocund with the fruitful Grape
Than sadden after none, or bitter, Fruit.

Oh, Thou, who Men of baser Earth didst make,
And ev'n with Paradise devise the Snake:
For all the Sin the Face of Wretched Man
Is black with-Man's forgiveness give--and take!

And much as Wine has played the Infidel,
And robbed me of my Robe of Honor--Well,
I often wonder what the Vintner's buy
One half so precious as the wares they sell.

-The Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam

Once there was a painter par excellence, a genius. He created a painting so beautiful that he did not put it up for auction. The painting always remained in his room, in front of his eyes. All his future works had their roots in that painting.

Soon, the painter's worst fear became that of being separated from his master-piece. He lived a life in another realm full of paranoia, a reality revolving around the main objective of retaining the Precious at all costs.....

His mind has created the perfect hell for him.... which existed only in his eyes....

It took him 2 years to realize what he had become.... a monstrosity... a being fueled only by physical needs, greed and selfishness... his blindness to things that mattered....

Yesterday he tore the painting. He sawed through his own limb...

Today, a new phase of my life begins..... one string less....

I can't imagine, any greater fear
Than waking up, without you here,
And though the sun, would still shine on,
My whole world, would all be gone.

It wouldn't matter why we're apart,
Lonely miles or two stubborn hearts
Nothing short of Death
Could turn me away from your love
I need you that much.

If I had to run, if I had to crawl
If I had to swim a hundred rivers, just to climb a thousand walls,
Always know that I would find a way, to get to where you are,
There's no place that far.

- Sara Evans

Happy Mother's Day... :)

Evolve

There was a time when i despised my life, my sense of being, all the people who constituted my existence. I only lived because the lives of few people who had cared for me depended on me. Giving it all up just didn't seem worth hurting them. So i lived on, for others...

But with time, my reasons for living changed. After a great deal of introspection, delving beneath those thick layers of self-delusion, i figured out that i was, in fact, afraid of death.... as a child is afraid of the dark. I remember, when i was a small boy, i was so afraid of the dark. Night was the embodiment of everything i feared. I used to stay up alone in my bed, waiting for the sun to rise....

It took me a long time to understand that the only way to get over your demons is to embrace them. Now, night is a friend.... sunlight is a bane...

I kept evolving. Every new experience taught me new ways to adapt and thus to survive. I have now become a fighter. They say i never give up. The truth is, i have already given up everything. My whole being has become a set of images. Images of a person that was.... that existed before all the expectations mutilated him into something he should be, but is not....

In hindsight this eternal fight seems unnecessary for someone who hates to live... why rebel when it makes no difference ? Because this set of images is now trying to form a concrete shape. Something which is not made of deceit but truth. It would seem that he now wants to live. It would seem that he is not afraid of death anymore. It would seem that he has climbed out of the abyss to take back what is his..... his life....

Actually, he had evolved again.... and this time he realized that although he was afraid of death, he also loved to live.

He watches a new flower grow
He watches a rain drop fall on his face
He watches magnets attract eachother
He watches a caterpiller turn into a butterfly
He watches the perfect form of the woman he loves

The child in him which he thought had died is reborn again....
It is this child that shows him how beautiful the world truly is
And then he realizes... this child was never dead.... this child is the fighter inside his husk of meat...
The child is the Soul

Slowly he realizes again...... to get over his fears he must embrace them.... and the only thing he ever feared was not death.... but life...

I've looked at it from both sides now;
To win and lose and still somehow-
It's life's deception as I recall,
I don't know life at all.

-picked up

He had a lot of trouble with taste. Often his thoughts were not tasty. There were no effective partitions in his mind. What he saw and learned touched everything else he knew. Some of the combinations were hard to live with. But he could not anticipate them, could not block and repress. His learned value of decency and propriety tagged along, shocked at his associations, appalled at his dreams; sorry that in the bone arena of his skull there were no forts for what he loved. His associations came at the speed of light, his value judgments were at the pace of responsive reading. They could never keep up and direct his thinking.
He viewed his mentality as grotesque but useful. There was nothing he could do about it.