"i KNOW ! in this moment i see it.... see what it is... what it eats away... how it kills, extending the agony to an entire lifetime.

a contortion of psyche so great, it robs the mind of the ability to form rational thought. a self-destructing mind on a timer

just how many of us know how much time one has ?

our whole life is lived on hope, not knowledge

people say they want to know themselves.... it isnt such a good idea. u never know what you may find...

even now pathetic attempts to distract attention...

the grand finale..... :P

mein gott !!!

un-seemingly related lines of thoughts do proceed along a logical path of indefinite length.

the light is always at the end of tunnel..

dont forget what you came for,sir. dont forget...

truth is a weapon... to give it to everyone is stupid... make it cryptic and then only the worthy have the key...

dry throat is the way to nirvnana... the one who knows himself... if only for few hours...

ahh yes a virus at work..

the desire gives rise to endless small days and long nights

vacuum tries to suck everything in it..

greed is a bane, there can be two birds in the bush, but then again, so can be the horse...

'Forces that shape our lives, events that defy explanation. Individuals whose lives soar to the heavens or fall to the earth. This is how legends are born.' - Death Rider

'Everything that has a beginning , has an end' -Matrix "

one day you will catch yourself wishing that the person you loved most had never existed, so you'd be spared your pain....

" unimaginable life, i see before you young padawan.... truely lost or truely great you are"

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have you found? The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

- Wish You were here (Pink Floyd)

Friedman defines ten "flatteners" that he sees as leveling the global playing field:

• #1: Collapse of Berlin Wall--11/'89: The event not only symbolized the end of the Cold war, it allowed people from other side of the wall to join the economic mainstream. (11/09/1989)
• #2: Netscape: Netscape and the Web broadened the audience for the Internet from its roots as a communications medium used primarily by 'early adopters and geeks' to something that made the Internet accessible to everyone from five-year-olds to ninety-five-year olds. (8/9/1995). The digitization that took place meant that everyday occurrences such as words, files, films, music and pictures could be accessed and manipulated on a computer screen by all people across the world.
• #3: Workflow software: The ability of machines to talk to other machines with no humans involved. Friedman believes these first three forces have become a “crude foundation of a whole new global platform for collaboration.”
• #4: Open sourcing: Communities uploading and collaborating on online projects. Examples include open source software, blogs, and Wikipedia. Friedman considers the phenomenon "the most disruptive force of all."
• #5: Outsourcing: Friedman argues that outsourcing has allowed companies to split service and manufacturing activities into components which can be subcontracted and performed in the most efficient, cost-effective way.
• #6: Offshoring: The internal relocation of a company's manufacturing or other processes to a foreign land in order to take advantage of less costly operations there.
• #7: Supply chaining: Friedman compares the modern retail supply chain to a river, and points to Wal-Mart as the best example of a company using technology to streamline item sales, distribution, and shipping.
• #8: Insourcing: Friedman uses UPS as a prime example for insourcing, in which the company's employees perform services--beyond shipping--for another company. For example, UPS repairs Toshiba computers on behalf of Toshiba. The work is done at the UPS hub, by UPS employees.
• #9: In-forming: Google and other search engines are the prime example. "Never before in the history of the planet have so many people-on their own-had the ability to find so much information about so many things and about so many other people", writes Friedman. The growth of search engines is tremendous; for example take Google, in which Friedman states that it is "now processing roughly one billion searches per day, up from 150 million just three years ago".
• #10: "The Steroids": Personal digital devices like mobile phones, iPods, personal digital assistants, instant messaging, and voice over Internet Protocol (VoIP).

i just talked to someone. i realized how cold i am when i talk to people...
cold, calculative
ruthless..
i know people and i manipulate them
to my gain

but, interestingly i dont want an item. i am not materialistic. i just want someone to give me somthing so that they feel good about themselves and then parasitically i gain his goodwill as well...

it makes me materialistic( indeed even a miser) in case of goodwill from people. i try to hoard them.
that is why i am always liked by almost everyone.

i do it because people feel superior to me then. that is where pity comes in and they automatically are biased in the favor of goodwill.

does it not make perfect sense ?

i try to please everyone. every known person has been assessed, his thinking already sensed and then i mould one of my images to fit his thinking in such a way that i either gain superiority or humbleness from that person. this method of mine makes me either superior to someone or in good terms with my superior automatically.

i am truely, a human virus..... :)
and i am also more honest for my own good...
and so more detached... that i dont want anything with my gift.... it must wasting away...just like me....

i m now so truely fucked that i cannot face the real world at all

i live in my own world in which i am a god.... i can direct my own reality
i donot believe facts now... facts to me are mere bad dreams.....hahahahahahaha

i may not seem like rambling but yes ! thats wt i m doing !!!!!!

rofl !

my life, as u will realize, is an ideally fucked ! :)

last ! but ...er.. not the least...
never lose hope ! it always pushes u to keep muddling on ur way ! muddling