Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Keep going

One day I decided to quit... I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said.. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?" "Yes", I replied.
When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.
"In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. "I would not quit.." He said. "Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant... But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots.
Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."
He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots."
"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you. " Don't compare yourself to others .." He said. " The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern ... Yet, they both make the forest beautiful."

-taken from somewhere

Sunday, April 11, 2010


Last few weeks have been... interesting. i have been down and nearly out but recovered my senses at the last moment. Circumstances... people... problems. that is life.

I had always believed that less interactions with people reduces the chances of a problem creeping up. For a while, i started believing that this belief was wrong and maybe, i had misinterpreted my deductions from past experiences.

Now i realize that i was, in fact, completely correct. When i was young, 17-19.. my life was so much simpler. i read books, watched movies, listened to music. society had not yet intruded in my private space nor its absence had any effect on me. now, at 23, my life is much more complex. there r too many people involved who donot deserve to be in the picture. they r only there because of my stubbornness and fear of letting people go.

I dont really believe in resolutions. i can never fullfill them. but this, i will remember :) i have been in temperance for far too long. subduing my innate nature. caring about people when they dont give a shit nor deserve even a raised eye brow.

Anyone without a purpose, will go.
my wings are spread... i FLY !!