Judgement

"you have a right to kill me. but u have no right to call me a murderer. u have no right to judge me.

its impossible, in words, to describe what is necessary, to those who donot know what horror means.

Horror. horror has a face. and u must make a friend of horror. horror and moral terror are ur friends. if they are not, then they r enemies to be feared. they are truely.... Enemies.

i remember, when i was with special forces. it seems a thousand centuries ago. we went to a camp to innoculate children. we left the camp after we had innoculated the children for polio. and this old man came running after us. he was crying; he cudnt say. we went back there. and they had come and hacked off every innoculated arm.

there they were in a pile.... a pile of... little arms.

and, i remember, i...i... i cried... i wept like.. like some grandmother. i wanted to tear my teeth out. i didnt know what i wanted to do.

and i wanted to remember. i never wanted to forget. i never want to forget....

and then i realized. like i was shot. like i was shot with a diamond bullet right through my forehead. and i thought " my god. the genius of that. the genius.... the will.. to do that. Perfect.. Genuine.. Complete.. Crystalline... Pure."

then i realized they were stronger than me because they could stand this. they were not monsters. these were men.these were trained cadres. these men who fought with their hearts. who have families. who have children. who are filled with love. but they have the strength.... the strength to do that....

you have to have men who are moral... and at the same time who are able to utilize their primodal instincts to kill, without feeling, without passion..... without judgement.... without judgement...

because... its Judgement that defeats us.... "

- Marlon Brando