So far away....

Here I am again in this mean old town
And youre so far away from me
And where are you when the sun goes down
Youre so far away from me

Im tired of being in love and being all alone
When youre so far away from me
Im tired of making out on the telephone ( google talk for us )
And youre so far away from me

I get so tired when I have to explain
When youre so far away from me
See you been in the sun and Ive been in the rain
And youre so far away from me

So far away from me
So far I just cant see
So far away from me
Youre so far away from me

--- So Far Away ( Dire Straits )

an evening to note...

the other day i was sitting in a park outside my house. there i saw a couple sitting on the bench. both were in their 80s. wrinkled skin... boney hands... unpararelled care for eachother. the way they talked and laughed, with no care in the world for anything other than them. it had me wondering.... at this age the expectations are minimal. when two people have been so long together, they come to know eachother completely. at this point of a relationship, there is only acceptance.
this is love in it purest form. i saw that they had integrated themselves into eachother in such a way that they had individuality and at the same time complimented eachother completely. a pity, i could find no ode to offer them.
i just smiled when our eyes met..... got up and walked away.... with envy in my heart.
i wonder if, years from now, some guy will look at us and think the same thing....

...

Captain Sarcasm possesed a philosophical mind from and early age. As he grew up, his views turned negative and he began to hone his trademark sarcastic edge. His sarcastic nature manifested into other personality traits: an anger management problem, completely rational mind, ability to see both sides of every arguement, dislike of social interactions, and weird sense of humor. He was the smartest kid in his years of education, but often had many spats with his teachers.

everything comes down to the memories of you....

Nothing ever stops all these thoughts
and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happenin'
It's like nothing I could do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'Cause from the infinite words I could say I
Put all the pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize
Instead of setting it free I
took what I hated and made it a part of me

Hearing your name
the memories come back again
I remember when it started happenin'
I'd see you in every thought I had
and then
my thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away I was
committing myself to 'em
And every day
I regret saying those things
cause now I see
that I
took what I hated and made it a part of me.

And now
You've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate
Myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you

-- Figure .09 (LP)

Soaks my skin - through to the bone
Pain is nothing that a downpour won't
erase
Rain - you can't hold on to it
A treasure you cannot frame
Rain
- somehow I'm drawn to it
I feel engaged, one and the same
When heavens
dressing beads off my face
The pain is nothing that a downpour won't erase

- Delerium