everything comes down to the memories of you....

Nothing ever stops all these thoughts
and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happenin'
It's like nothing I could do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'Cause from the infinite words I could say I
Put all the pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize
Instead of setting it free I
took what I hated and made it a part of me

Hearing your name
the memories come back again
I remember when it started happenin'
I'd see you in every thought I had
and then
my thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away I was
committing myself to 'em
And every day
I regret saying those things
cause now I see
that I
took what I hated and made it a part of me.

And now
You've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate
Myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you

-- Figure .09 (LP)

Soaks my skin - through to the bone
Pain is nothing that a downpour won't
erase
Rain - you can't hold on to it
A treasure you cannot frame
Rain
- somehow I'm drawn to it
I feel engaged, one and the same
When heavens
dressing beads off my face
The pain is nothing that a downpour won't erase

- Delerium

The flinch in your eye calls your bluff
Feel free to die when you’ve had enough
Useless cause is breaking your back
Your life will end when you attack

Make your move
Make your stand
Make the win
(ha..) Like you can

See the war
See me rule
See the mirror
You'll see a fool

To take me out you must fight like a man
You’ve yet to prove that you can
you've yet to prove me that you can
I see your might and it compares to something
That is if something is nothing

Time to figure
Time to sin
Your times done
When you begin

Live for suffer
Live for revenge
Now your life
Comes to an end

Taste the blood
Taste your fate
Swallow your pride
With your hate

Your last breathe
Your last stance
The last of all
In your command

Kneel in the blood with your crying pleas
Wade in your sorrow, bathe in your fear
Clear the mind from righteousness suffered
Witness the moment of your failures prosper

The flinch in your eye calls your bluff....

---Taste the blood ( Devil May Cry 3 OST )

Now you’ve really crossed the line
Your hate for me is divine
My love yearns for your suffer
On your grave lurks my prosper

Taunt more as a lure but its no use
Knots tight my excite
I prepare the noose
Say no more it’s time
For you to make your move
My blackened soul’s lit by your fuel
Implode your moral
And drains your pride
Too late for debate or run and hide
Time to take your life tolls the bell
To your hell I’d like to welcome you

Hail to a father of divine
To the son the light will shine
From the angst of lost memories
A just revenge to cure misery

- Divine Hate ( Devil May Cry 3 OST)

i thought i knew what pain is.... for the past 3 days i have been successful in reaching all new levels of pain....