i just talked to someone. i realized how cold i am when i talk to people...
cold, calculative
ruthless..
i know people and i manipulate them
to my gain

but, interestingly i dont want an item. i am not materialistic. i just want someone to give me somthing so that they feel good about themselves and then parasitically i gain his goodwill as well...

it makes me materialistic( indeed even a miser) in case of goodwill from people. i try to hoard them.
that is why i am always liked by almost everyone.

i do it because people feel superior to me then. that is where pity comes in and they automatically are biased in the favor of goodwill.

does it not make perfect sense ?

i try to please everyone. every known person has been assessed, his thinking already sensed and then i mould one of my images to fit his thinking in such a way that i either gain superiority or humbleness from that person. this method of mine makes me either superior to someone or in good terms with my superior automatically.

i am truely, a human virus..... :)
and i am also more honest for my own good...
and so more detached... that i dont want anything with my gift.... it must wasting away...just like me....